Nothin better but...

There is nothing better than the accomplishment you feel when you hit a goal. I hit my first big weight loss goal of 30 lbs today!! I'm super excited, and along with that, is the determination to hit the next 30 lbs, and the next. and the next. and...the next. Yes, I have THAT much to lose.

BUT part of me is embarrassed that I even HAVE this much weight to lose. When did it get so bad? Its been like this for YEARS and I don't know a point where I just decided I was ok with it. It just kinda happened, bite by bite, fried food by fried food. And I have only myself to blame. But now, I'm taking control of it. I'm doing this for ME, because I cannot STAND to have all this on me anymore. Its time to go, bye bye fat!

The joys of caffeine...or not so much...

Its amazing to me how dependent our bodies get on caffeine! Before I was on this diet, I was drinking BOATLOADS of regular soda, mainly Dr Pepper. Well 5 weeks ago, I cut it down to one soda a day (yes that time SUCKED), and then 2 days later, made that one DIET soda a day, and I've been happily plodding along with that. Well, last Friday I made a commitment to cut out all soda, and I've been amazed at how I'm still having headaches from it, even though I was only at one a day. Its crazy, and they really need to ease up quickly without the use of ibuprofen! I've also really been noticing these past two days how much earlier I need to get in bed without caffeine for during the day...lol Mornings have been rough...to say the least...

So, in closing, thanks to the soda industry for getting me hooked on that, so I have to suffer more now just to get healthy...blah...

No electricity

Ok so SUCK! We had a fun evening tonite, met up with my Mommy Match date, Amy, from DAM, at McDonalds (check our Adventures site later for pics of that). I had D with me and she brought two of her boys, one is just a little bit younger than D. We got home about 830 to find that the power had been out at the house since noon. We had a nasty storm come through and lightning blew a transformer! So...tonite we are spending the night at Beth's house. At least D passed OUT quickly with no problems. But blah how sucky is that? The electric co had no idea how much longer it would be out. But at least Beth got to see me work out...lol I know, such excitement for her.

Oooooooh

Friday the 13th...oooooooooooooohhh. An odd day already. D went to bed abit after 6 last night, refusing dinner, and BEGGING for bed. He had a lowgrade fever. Still does this morning. Hopefully its just his body fighting off something and it won't turn into anything worse! Traffic was pretty light this morning, which was great since I was running a bit late...lol Tonite will be church, assuming D is no worse. Anyone got big plans for the weekend? I don't think we do, just a quiet Saturday, I know I don't feel up to much. Happy Friday the 13th!

My big confession

Ya know, I just spent 30 minutes writing a HUGE whine session on here. And then I think...noone wants to read my complaining...so I deleted it...why did I do that? I keep so much bottled up, because I feel like my issues are so insignificant compared to others. And to be honest, I feel sometimes like other people treat them as such. So I keep it suppressed. Thats not really healthy, I guess, but it is what it is. Maybe some day I'll feel comfortable enough with one person in this world to TRULY share everything I think and feel.

Obama clinches the Democratic nomination

Ok, this is my blog, you have been warned...this is my humble opinion, so I can write what I want on here. And let me tell you, I do not like Obama. I don't necessarily like Hillary either but I could tolerate her. And no, its not because of his race, it has nothing to do with the color of his skin, and everything to do with who he is. I'm really going to be doing some hard praying coming up on the general election. I will concede that I'm not completely the fondest of McCain either but I think he's the one thats closest to my beliefs. All I know is, it could be a LONG next 4 years. *sigh* Please, guys, if you are supporting McCain, PLEASE get out there and vote when its time!