My child needs some prayer

Before he gets excommunicated...OY, this child is driving me nuts! Two days ago, I started switching my discipline methods to more Love and Logic techniques. And let me just say, that D is fighting it with every fiber of his being. He is testing me on so many levels its not even funny, every little part of our typical routine is turning into a test. I'm just exhausted from it, and its only day 2. On a good note, he IS responding to the choices I've been giving him.

I spent a lot of last night crying over this. A) Its just trying and emotional to have your child testing their limits constantly, even little routine things, which we always do. I know this is shortlived, (please God tell me this is short-lived!!) But also B) I'm feeling like the worst parent ever. Mainly because I think that I should have started this from the very beginning, and even though he does have neurological issues that cause a lot of the problems he has, and makes all this worse, because he's very very clever, and it seems to me that he DOES test more than other kids do, I feel that a lot of what I've been attributing as a neuro issue, is a failing on my part. I really feel like a failure with him for even HAVING to make this transition. Better late than never, right? I keep consoling myself with the fact that I've always been fairly firm and consistent with him (with a touch of what my friend's call "black momma"), but this is a whole new ballgame. And right now, I'm just praying for daylight.