AF is still running rampant today, so it has been one LONG day. I took D to the ENT (update on our other blog), and have spent the rest of the afternoon/evening at home.
My eating could have been better, but I stayed on calories. Breakfast this morning, was quite unusual...lol I basically ate my afternoon snack instead of breakfast. I had a 100 cal pack of choc covered pretzels, and raisins. My morning snack, ended up being a bag of Pirates Booty. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine deep dish pizza. It was a VERY busy morning/midday at work so I was bad about drinking water. My afternoon snack was Reduced Fat Wheat Thins before I went to go get D. For dinner, I really wasn't up for cooking, so we grabbed chicken quesadillas from Taco Bell, and took them home. For an evening snack tonite, I had an apple before my bike ride, and then a 100 cal pudding to end my day at 1593 calories.
Output was 15 minutes on the bike which ended up being 2.9 miles. Urggh...it was better than last night, but I still wanted that 3 miles back.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
What happens during rush hour traffic...
I wanted to make this a separate post so it doesn't get lost in everything else. It truly is amazing to me how God works things out. Things you didn't know you needed in order to do some healing.
We went to Walmart on Saturday evening, and while we go there lots, I NEVER browse cds. They just aren't something I'm typically interested in unless I already have one I want to get (cd's in general that is, I don't like carting them around and would rather just download music). Well, I went straight to the Christian cd's and just kept feeling this prompting to look through them. I browsed around a bit through them, and I saw one that caught my eye, but decided to move on finally and keep shopping. (This was a "killing time" walmart trip, not a grocery run, so I had time to be lax.) However, after walking around walmart abit more, I found myself back at the cd's. I finally decided that if I was going to keep coming back to this one cd, that I might as well get it. And I am so thankful that I listened to God's voice. I got the newest Mandisa cd (she was on American Idol a few seasons back), and have been listening to it ever since.
I can not even begin to explain how much the music from this cd is ministering to me right now. There is one song on here, the last one, that is from the perspective of someone who is already gone and in Heaven...the chorus is "if you could only see this place, you wouldn't cry for me today". I think I spent most of the drive to work this morning dealing with lingering grief from my grandad passing away 2 years ago. But what was interesting to me, was that God used that to bring up other issues I had not even admitted to myself that cropped up during that time. It was VERY hard to admit to myself that even though I was so grateful to have D during that time as a distraction and to keep me from completely going inside myself, I also resented him quite a bit, because he needed the attention that I wanted to focus on my grandad. I had not realized how much of a weight that had been on me ever since.
So now as one more layer is peeled away from this wall that keeps me from fully embracing who I am, I was able to let that go and give it to God. He's a big God and He can handle it. I'm so thankful for that. Moral of the story: God can speak to you anywhere, even in Walmart. And you gotta love the things that He does for us, even during rush hour traffic...lol
We went to Walmart on Saturday evening, and while we go there lots, I NEVER browse cds. They just aren't something I'm typically interested in unless I already have one I want to get (cd's in general that is, I don't like carting them around and would rather just download music). Well, I went straight to the Christian cd's and just kept feeling this prompting to look through them. I browsed around a bit through them, and I saw one that caught my eye, but decided to move on finally and keep shopping. (This was a "killing time" walmart trip, not a grocery run, so I had time to be lax.) However, after walking around walmart abit more, I found myself back at the cd's. I finally decided that if I was going to keep coming back to this one cd, that I might as well get it. And I am so thankful that I listened to God's voice. I got the newest Mandisa cd (she was on American Idol a few seasons back), and have been listening to it ever since.
I can not even begin to explain how much the music from this cd is ministering to me right now. There is one song on here, the last one, that is from the perspective of someone who is already gone and in Heaven...the chorus is "if you could only see this place, you wouldn't cry for me today". I think I spent most of the drive to work this morning dealing with lingering grief from my grandad passing away 2 years ago. But what was interesting to me, was that God used that to bring up other issues I had not even admitted to myself that cropped up during that time. It was VERY hard to admit to myself that even though I was so grateful to have D during that time as a distraction and to keep me from completely going inside myself, I also resented him quite a bit, because he needed the attention that I wanted to focus on my grandad. I had not realized how much of a weight that had been on me ever since.
So now as one more layer is peeled away from this wall that keeps me from fully embracing who I am, I was able to let that go and give it to God. He's a big God and He can handle it. I'm so thankful for that. Moral of the story: God can speak to you anywhere, even in Walmart. And you gotta love the things that He does for us, even during rush hour traffic...lol
Crap Fest Weekend 09
It hasn't been the first and prolly won't be the last time this year to have one, but yeah, it was a crap food weekend. I'm not even going to post what I ate, it just sucked overall. I don't think I did just AWFUL on cals, as I still monitored portions, but I didn't eat good foods. I realized on Saturday what I was doing, and then made a conscious decision to go ahead and let Sunday suck as well, get it out of my system, and start fresh today. I've already chugged a bottle of water and am gearing up for a pretty light day today to compensate. Needless to say, my weight was up quite a bit this morning, because aside from the crapfest, AF started yesterday, and is definitely making its presence known. So this week is going to pretty much suck for that, but its ok. I'd rather the worst part be during the week so we can enjoy our weekends!
We did have a pretty good weekend. Of course, we did, I got to eat crap. lol We did end up seeing two movies. Monsters vs Aliens which was ok, it had a few pretty funny parts, but was otherwise, just ok, and then we saw Madea Goes to Jail, which is such a good movie! Although I don't know that I've found a Madea movie I didn't like. D is really good at sitting through movies now as long as he has popcorn and a drink (and a pouch of fruit snacks at this one...lol), so I'm able to enjoy them for the most part, aside from a few reminders to him.
I also got to get my baby fix in, and D got to get some time in with his lil girlfriend, we went and visited my friend yesterday for awhile, which is always great. I really enjoy spending time with them.
So, in determining to have a good week, I almost got up and worked out this morning, but decided to wait til this evening. LOL Ok don't laugh so much, I think my reasoning was pretty valid. With AF waging war on my body this week, a) I need the extra sleep in the mornings, since I typically don't sleep well at all, and b) evenings are going to be rough craving-wise, so I will need workouts to take my mind off it AND make me tired enough to go to bed early, and c) now that I have the stationary bike, I have no excuse for not working out even on AF. Expect some good rides this week. And please verbally kick me on here if you don't see at least SOME kinda rides this week...lol
So foodwise today I've had a Fiber One bar for breakfast, and then a tbsp of peanut butter for my morning snack. Lunch was a tunafish sandwich on whole grain, with a tbsp of miracle whip, and then a piece of string cheese, and a serving of Pirate's Booty (which I had never tried before and is YUM!!!). My afternoon snack is going to be an Eating Right nutrition bar. Dinner this evening was a sort of chicken parmesan. I made Shake n Bake chicken served over spaghetti with a bit of cheese on top and broccoli on the side. It was GOOD. Dessert was a 100 cal choc pretzels pack to end my day at 1603 calories.
Output was a 15 minute bike ride this evening. It was pretty slow though, I only made 2.7 miles. Tomorrow night, I BETTER get 3 miles at least out of that same timing.
We did have a pretty good weekend. Of course, we did, I got to eat crap. lol We did end up seeing two movies. Monsters vs Aliens which was ok, it had a few pretty funny parts, but was otherwise, just ok, and then we saw Madea Goes to Jail, which is such a good movie! Although I don't know that I've found a Madea movie I didn't like. D is really good at sitting through movies now as long as he has popcorn and a drink (and a pouch of fruit snacks at this one...lol), so I'm able to enjoy them for the most part, aside from a few reminders to him.
I also got to get my baby fix in, and D got to get some time in with his lil girlfriend, we went and visited my friend yesterday for awhile, which is always great. I really enjoy spending time with them.
So, in determining to have a good week, I almost got up and worked out this morning, but decided to wait til this evening. LOL Ok don't laugh so much, I think my reasoning was pretty valid. With AF waging war on my body this week, a) I need the extra sleep in the mornings, since I typically don't sleep well at all, and b) evenings are going to be rough craving-wise, so I will need workouts to take my mind off it AND make me tired enough to go to bed early, and c) now that I have the stationary bike, I have no excuse for not working out even on AF. Expect some good rides this week. And please verbally kick me on here if you don't see at least SOME kinda rides this week...lol
So foodwise today I've had a Fiber One bar for breakfast, and then a tbsp of peanut butter for my morning snack. Lunch was a tunafish sandwich on whole grain, with a tbsp of miracle whip, and then a piece of string cheese, and a serving of Pirate's Booty (which I had never tried before and is YUM!!!). My afternoon snack is going to be an Eating Right nutrition bar. Dinner this evening was a sort of chicken parmesan. I made Shake n Bake chicken served over spaghetti with a bit of cheese on top and broccoli on the side. It was GOOD. Dessert was a 100 cal choc pretzels pack to end my day at 1603 calories.
Output was a 15 minute bike ride this evening. It was pretty slow though, I only made 2.7 miles. Tomorrow night, I BETTER get 3 miles at least out of that same timing.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Finally friday...
Waited ALL week for it! My heel finally wasn't hurting at all today so this evening we got out for a bit. It was nice even though we didn't do TOO much, just the mall, I kept it at an easy walk, but it felt good to stretch my legs. Now if this cold/rain mess would pass us by and bring back some sun, we could get outside!
I had a nice crap food day apparently. lol Breakfast was oatmeal and THAT was ok. But lunch...well...I was out of PBJ, lunch plans got cancelled on me, so...I caved into a chicken quesadilla. It was GOOD though. lol When I got back to work, I had Kosher Dill chips... :( This afternoon I was CRAVING chocolate. I mean, it was a NEED. I contemplated getting a bag of m&ms out of the machine to just stop the craving, but instead, I went searching, and our lovely receptionist had mini tootsie rolls and hersheys kisses on her desk, so I had one (ONLY ONE) of each. And that took it away nicely. WHEW. Later in the afternoon, I had a tbsp of peanutbutter. Dinner was what it is becoming our typical Friday evening, a walk at the mall, CFA kids meals for dinner and then an ice dream cone after the walk to end my day at 1599 calories. OH and D also makes me go into the Earthbound Trading Company store to see the hermit crabs...lol yeah he is entranced by those. But its always fun. There was some kind of concert inside the mall, some little known boy band (well, I had no clue who they were...lol). Lots of girls crowded up there, but it wasn't just awful. D goes "look, mommy! Girls!" LOL! That boy, I swear...
Output today was our walk around the mall and then late this evening, I felt so bad for barely having had any output all week so I did a mile on the bike. I can't believe not that long ago I was doing 4 miles...now I'm back down in a week! Urggh...just gotta work up to it again...
I had a nice crap food day apparently. lol Breakfast was oatmeal and THAT was ok. But lunch...well...I was out of PBJ, lunch plans got cancelled on me, so...I caved into a chicken quesadilla. It was GOOD though. lol When I got back to work, I had Kosher Dill chips... :( This afternoon I was CRAVING chocolate. I mean, it was a NEED. I contemplated getting a bag of m&ms out of the machine to just stop the craving, but instead, I went searching, and our lovely receptionist had mini tootsie rolls and hersheys kisses on her desk, so I had one (ONLY ONE) of each. And that took it away nicely. WHEW. Later in the afternoon, I had a tbsp of peanutbutter. Dinner was what it is becoming our typical Friday evening, a walk at the mall, CFA kids meals for dinner and then an ice dream cone after the walk to end my day at 1599 calories. OH and D also makes me go into the Earthbound Trading Company store to see the hermit crabs...lol yeah he is entranced by those. But its always fun. There was some kind of concert inside the mall, some little known boy band (well, I had no clue who they were...lol). Lots of girls crowded up there, but it wasn't just awful. D goes "look, mommy! Girls!" LOL! That boy, I swear...
Output today was our walk around the mall and then late this evening, I felt so bad for barely having had any output all week so I did a mile on the bike. I can't believe not that long ago I was doing 4 miles...now I'm back down in a week! Urggh...just gotta work up to it again...
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Yup still slacking...
Writing this one on Friday too...can't believe I missed two days in a row!! Urgh...but in my defense, it has been a long week, and I did get some good sleep! lol
I've had the same breakfast/lunch/snack as the last few days, finishing up my bread. Only one PBJ today though, and baby carrots that I had leftover, instead of sugar snap peas. I SO need to go to the store this weekend, as I now have used up all my lunch food at work. Don't even have anything for today, so I need to figure something out. Dinner was a Totino's Crisp Crust pizza that D and I split, with ranch style beans and salad with light ranch. I had a snack before bed of a 100 cal Smartfoods popcorn baggie to end my day at 1390 calories.
Output...uggh...nothing. My heel is feeling better though, just kinda itchy and achy, but its not bad. Tomorrow (Friday), I'm do a mild walk at the mall for some exercise.
I've had the same breakfast/lunch/snack as the last few days, finishing up my bread. Only one PBJ today though, and baby carrots that I had leftover, instead of sugar snap peas. I SO need to go to the store this weekend, as I now have used up all my lunch food at work. Don't even have anything for today, so I need to figure something out. Dinner was a Totino's Crisp Crust pizza that D and I split, with ranch style beans and salad with light ranch. I had a snack before bed of a 100 cal Smartfoods popcorn baggie to end my day at 1390 calories.
Output...uggh...nothing. My heel is feeling better though, just kinda itchy and achy, but its not bad. Tomorrow (Friday), I'm do a mild walk at the mall for some exercise.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Slacker!
This is actually being written on Friday...lol I've so slacked! On a good note, both tonite and thursday night I went to bed early and got some SLEEP, some very much needed sleep!
I'll keep this brief...breakfast was a Fiber One bar. Lunch was actually TWO PBJs on whole grain (yeah I was hungry!!), with Kosher Dill chips, and sugar snap peas. Applesauce was my afternoon snack, and then dinner was sauteed chicken, with herb and butter rice and broccoli. Evening snack was a pudding cup to end the day at 1577 calories.
Output was nil as my heel is still achy and I wanted to go to bed early.
I'll keep this brief...breakfast was a Fiber One bar. Lunch was actually TWO PBJs on whole grain (yeah I was hungry!!), with Kosher Dill chips, and sugar snap peas. Applesauce was my afternoon snack, and then dinner was sauteed chicken, with herb and butter rice and broccoli. Evening snack was a pudding cup to end the day at 1577 calories.
Output was nil as my heel is still achy and I wanted to go to bed early.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Doc appt today
Well I had a doc appt today to look at the bottom of my heel. When I was 12, I had plantar warts removed from one heel, and it was such an awful experience with the surgery, I'd been avoiding going back. But I'm happy to say no surgery is needed! Woohoo! Its basically a deep callus that is causing some bursitis. I will still have to have some treatments, they basically took a sanding tool to my heel today...lol so its a weeeeeeee bit tender, and whatever they put on it...silver nitrate?...is gonna turn it black for a week or so. I go back in 3 weeks and they'll do it again. I also got prescriptions for a daily home routine to keep it from coming back, and that is SO doable. WHEW!!! Y'all have no idea how relieved I am!!!
I've been pretty good so far today. I went to a wedding shower this afternoon (CONGRATS Ruth and Allen!), and didn't do as great as I wanted to, but I kept it under control.
Breakfast this morning was applesauce, I wasn't super hungry. Lunch was a PBJ on whole grain and baby carrots. Before the shower, I had a 100 cal minibag of popcorn to see if it kept the edge off wanting to eat at the shower. Then at the shower, I had a cupcake, 1 regular strawberry and 1 choc covered strawberry and a few M&Ms. Yeah...not GREAT but it could have been worse. For dinner, D and I went to Souper Salad. I had 2 of their little pizza slices (at 90 cals a pop, yeah they are thin and little), plus a breadstick, and then a big salad with low cal ranch. D and I also got ice cream cones there. This evening for a snack I had a 100 cal bag of popcorn to end my day at 1415 calories.
Output, none...my heel was bothering me pretty good all evening so I just kept it propped up all evening.
I've been pretty good so far today. I went to a wedding shower this afternoon (CONGRATS Ruth and Allen!), and didn't do as great as I wanted to, but I kept it under control.
Breakfast this morning was applesauce, I wasn't super hungry. Lunch was a PBJ on whole grain and baby carrots. Before the shower, I had a 100 cal minibag of popcorn to see if it kept the edge off wanting to eat at the shower. Then at the shower, I had a cupcake, 1 regular strawberry and 1 choc covered strawberry and a few M&Ms. Yeah...not GREAT but it could have been worse. For dinner, D and I went to Souper Salad. I had 2 of their little pizza slices (at 90 cals a pop, yeah they are thin and little), plus a breadstick, and then a big salad with low cal ranch. D and I also got ice cream cones there. This evening for a snack I had a 100 cal bag of popcorn to end my day at 1415 calories.
Output, none...my heel was bothering me pretty good all evening so I just kept it propped up all evening.
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